Okay Okay so I know I haven't posted in a while my grand plan to keep updating at least twice a week has failed miserably. But I am motivated today...despite only just getting out of bed at 12:45pm. I WAS HAVING GOOD DREAMS!!!

Lets recap shall we...lost my job, had some summer fun, went home and wanted to die, had a run in with the ex, applied for some jobs, got an interview for friday. Thats about the most exciting stuff that has happened.

Now on to the fun stuff! I found ALL my old writing and some writing of other peoples. I have been going over it and weeding out all the stuff I think is really really terrible except for a few that are just too funny to get rid of. I am going to start rewriting (and hopefully finishing as I had a nasty habit of never doing that with anything) about five of them.

Two are vampire stories (on of which Rostand helped me with!), one is a sort of sci-fi-ish type thing and two of them are fantasy type with magic and such. I don't really have titles for most of them but Im excited to start writing them again. One of them is actually one of my old nano novels that I kept!

I still have more writing to go through. Oh and Caitlin! I found the ORIGINAL abyss notebook! THE ORIGINAL!!! How weird is that!

Im so amazed by the abuse I've been recieving from my ex that all I can do now is laugh hysterically when I get a message. The following bunch of comments are a text message exchange between him and I that started on sunday because I didn't answer the phone when he called because I never heard my phone go off.

First Text from Chris: when i call u answer or i wll force the payments out of you.

(by payments he's referring to payments for the car, which he has, which i won't ever see again)

My response: I was in the bathroom when you called the first time, dont you dare threaten me.

Chris: I will and will follow through I make more money than i ever have now.

(so to explain his terrible grammer, by I will he means he will threaten me all he likes because he's a giant asshole, and he just had to throw out there that he makes lots of money so if it went to court he can pay for it and I can't)

My response: go ahead and threaten me chris i have no qualms about claiming bankruptcy if you try to force the payments out of me.

Chris: fuck yourself over, always knew you were stupid.

My response: hows it any different then how your trying to fuck me over, if you try to make me pay money i dont have its going to the same godamn result.

(and because I was really pissed off I also sent a second message)

PS: obviously i was stupid since i stayed with you for six years.

(then in very rapid succession i got three messages from him)

1. I should have listened to myself the first time and i wouldnt have had you dump all this debt on me. (this i think is referring to the fact that he should have dumped the car on me)

2. I was good for you for a long time, not recently, but I was and you've ignored me for two years.

3. Put up with your bullshit about you being fat and not doing anything about your fat, its no ones problem but your own. (obviously this was said just to push my buttons and be a big prick.)

At this point I stopped repsonding altogether, I just couldn't be bothered. I almost pity the guy because obviously he is having a very hard time with coming to terms with being alone. I honestly didn't realize he cared that much about me but seriously, its been almost three months he really needs to start making an effort to move on.

So as I mentioned in my last random post, my friend that I have taken to calling Orion came to visit. He also brought another friend, Cameron. The same night they showed up Lukas and I (Lukas also being a code name) went for beer (yes I have suddenly gotten a taste for beer) and somehow became intoxicated. Later we met up with Nikki and then Orion and Cameron. The ensuing events were.....nothing but chaos.

I've no idea what came over the five of us but that night was by far one of the most random, hilarious and sexual evenings ever. EVER. There was a whole lot of humping....mostly Lukas and Orion, to each other. Please excuse me while I go laugh hysterically for a moment. There was also alot of groping, mostly done to me I realized. There is even a video to demonstrate.

Most spectacular of the entire evening is when Orion and Cameron did their little dance. OMG. Funniest thing I've ever seen two guys do...except for what happened after the dance. (Also a video for this but Lukas won't give me permission to put it on the internet XDDD)

Due to the lack of memory the next morning, and because of a similar incident the other night I've decided that its probably in my best interest to NOT drink EVER again. After a second evening out with a different group on saturday I was so dehydrated the next day that I probably should have gone to the hospital and I was sent home from work after only being there for an hour. I have not been that sick in a very very long time. I also remember very little from that night and I don't like forgetting things. So, no more drinking for a while, and must learn my limit better.

In regards to the random early morning post I made the other day. Things have improved somewhat, the snoring has randomly lessened >>' so I got a decent night sleep saturday night and a mostly good nights sleep last night (there was a small bout of snoring at about four am but a swift kick in the leg ended that quite effectively) so Im much more chipper then I was the other day.

Also I have begun playing final fantasy 3 (the north american 6) and I have to say after three hours of straight game play on an emulator I am really enjoying it. I've only failed at one boss fight so far XD

In other news my friend Orion is coming up today to stay for a day or two. He has an interview at a animation school that I really hope he gets into. PS I am going to start calling certain non-LJ friends by character names that I've come up with for a lot of them. There really are only a few people who will actually know who I'm referring to.

Anyways I must go back to work and sell some furniture and make some money. Hurrah for money!....

I am faced with a new dilemma at the moment I don't quite know how to overcome. The person Im currently sharing a space with snores so horribley bad that at the moment I would like nothing more then to smother him with my pillow. I have not gotten one minute of full sleep tonight. I have tried kicking him, hitting him, poking him, using earphones to drown him out and nothing helps. The sound just rips through everything. Any advice would be much appreciated, I can't spend another night on the couch for the sake of sleep (as its really not much better for getting any).

I think I must be sick or something, I never post this often. I just keep thinking of more things I want to mention on here. This particular post is regarding the animes and books I've been watching or reading.

First for books, I just finished a book called Once Bitten, Twice Shy. I wasn't sure I would like it at first but who can't love a book about a cia agent with a partner that is a 300 year old vampire. AWESOME. I love the style the book is written in and I love the story itself. I can't remember the author at the moment but I just know I loved the book and can't wait to get the other books in the series.

Im also still reading the Sword of Truth series and Im about a quarter of the way into Chainfire. I find the more I read this series the more I find it drags. Its interesting and the characters are great but things are getting a little monotonous. That still won't deter me from finishing the last three books though.

Now for anime. I am still watching D Grayman but I ended trailing off on that one for a while. I started watching SoulEater at matt frasers suggestion and I am amsued by the complete randomness of this series. It also has cool music. I finsihed watching all of Maburaho which was also awesome in its randomness. Cute story as well and highly entertaining. I started watching Mahou Sensai Negima tonight, also very entertaining. And finally I downloaded all of To Heart 2 only because I love one of the characters from it. XD

Oh on another note. I finally have begun sort of working on Elysium some more. I now have most of characters power written down. I just need Orion and the air student who I've yet to create though I do have someone in mind I'd like to base the air character off of, I believe matt already has someone choosen for that role. Ah well either way it will work. I started writting the first chapter as well and once I have some more of the details down I may post it here. WOOOO for writing!

So Im on the bus to work this morning and this older "gentleman" sits in the seats in front of me. When he gets on the bus is fairly empty but after several more stops it quickly fills up leaving his second seat the only empty seat on the bus. Apparently, his little blue bag has laid claim to it when a younger man gets on the bus a few stops later and indicates he would like to sit there the man WAVES him away! WHAT! Um excuse me sir, do you realize that the seats are meant for two people or are you just a cranky bastard.

The young man walks away and is forced to stand due to the man's apparent lack of caring. A few more stops later MORE people get on and a young lady walks by to stand near the back as there is only one available seat and lots of people that would like to sit there. As she walks by the seat the old man MOVES his frickin bag and waves her to sit down. WHAT. THE. HELL. Okay your not only a cranky old bastard but your also a dirty, cranky, old bastard.

Not much longer after that said girl gets off the bus and the blue bag regains its position in the seat next to its psychotic owner. As the bus begins to clear those that were forced to stand finally get seats though one poor young man who missed the previous waving away got a bit of a rude awakening when he attempted to sit in the seat with the blue bag. The old man was having none of that and picked up the bag and HIT the guy! Um...hulllllo didn't your mother ever teach you it was rude to hit innocent by standers you leacherous old coot.

When this mean old guy finally gets off the bus the first young man yells out several rude comments which in my opinion were completely reasonable requests but the man just appears to be oblivious as he wanders off down the road. Wholly hell where do these crazy people come from.

Hmm....I really need to stop finding songs that perfectly describe my current train of thought....Broken Wings by Flyleaf

Thank you for being such a friend to me
Oh I pray a friend for life,
And have I ever told you how much you mean to me?
Oh you mean so much to me
I'm thinking all the time I could tell you what I feel, I'm contemplating phrases, I'm gazing at eternity,
I am floating in serenity...

And I am so lost for words
And I am so overwhelmed

Please don't go just yet
Can you stay a moment please
We can dance together
We can dance forever

Under your stars tonight
We'll live and breathe this dream

So close your eyes, but don't dream too deep
And please pass me some memories
And when I fall you're underneath
1000 broken hearts, carried by 1000 broken wings

I am beginning to panic about my trip home even though I know I have nothing to panic about. I am still waiting to hear back about my application to the brick in halifax. Which means I still have no definite date on when Im actually leaving, but I would really like to leave by the end of april.

I would really like to meet up with a couple of friends in Ontario but until I hear from the manager in halifax I can't plan anything and thats driving me mental.

On the plus side, my diet is still going extremely well, I have lost 28.7 pounds and 38.75 inches WOW! Like I said anyone looking to loose weight should definitely try Herbal Magic it works amazingly well.

Onto a completely different topic, I am already planning crazy things for halloween with my friend. We've decided we're going to get seven girls and seven guys together and go as the seven sins for halloween! We want to look classy though so the guys will be wearing black shirts and pants with a particular coloured tie and hopefully the girls can wear dresses in a matching colour.

The colours we decided on are as follows:
Wrath-Red
Lust-Pink
Pride-Purple
Greed-Gold
Envy-Green
Gluttony-Orange
Sloth-Blue

So far I've got four girls (possibly a fifth) and three guys. AND IM SUPER EXCITED ALREADY!

Anyways gotta go to work.

Okay I have officially been single for a week now and I kind of feel...different. Its weird not having someone around all the time...

Anyways, I am almost to my first big mark in my weight loss program. I have lost 30 inches and 24.3 pounds! 1.2 more pounds to go before I hit the 25 pound mark and hit the 200 mark. YAYYYY!

Also I would like to say that Im very concerned for my mother right now. My great grandmother died and I think she is having trouble coping with it especially so close to my grandfathers death. I wish I could go out to visit her and take care of her for a while but unfortunately I am unable to do so with work.

No news on moving back to Nova Scotia yet...my plan is still around the end of may but I need money to do that and its proving harder then I thought to get that money. XD

So I have officially broken up my relationship of six years. I have to say as hard as I expected it to be...it was alot easier then I made it out to be. I guess that just shows how much of a change I was in need of. Even though I was broken up for one night..........I've already made a new friend.

Also I have to move out of my apartment and into a friends place so I won't be online quite as often for a bit. Hopefully I get my t4 soon so I can do my taxes because Im really going to need the money. Lucky me I got stuck with the car and I am happy to have it but my car payment is a little high, plus I have to fork out money for registering the vehicle and insurance. XD I have so much to do...I never realized how much stuff we had together.

Anyways I should go I have a lot of stuff to do today so I can move out.

I've come to the conclusion after talking to a certain friend that my hidden darkside is much deeper then I thought. Though because I've held such a submissive attitude over the years I've buried the particular aspect of my personality. Also on a side note, the last post I made referred to my hating sex...this darkside of myself my have something to do with that but I've yet to test the theory (and really have no way TO test my theory as my partner probably has no interest in what Im thinking)

HAHA! Mild mannered, shy quiet girl by day! Closet S&M girl by night....*AHEM* did I mention this is really only a theory. >>

OKAY! On to good news. I'm down 18.3 pounds now! WOOOO! Im almost under the 200 mark. This is so exciting for me!

I should probably go back to work as well...lunch break is almost over. BYE!

I have strange thoughts. They make me wonder about my sanity sometimes. >> Like random dirty thoughts about my friends or worse my customers. *shudder* At least I like the ones about my friends.

I should just mention Im writing this fairly late and my brain is sort of puttering along of its own will...I take no responsibility for what may end up in the post.

Ou...I like the crazy haired band....Tokio Hotel I think....I like their new song. Speaking of music I tried rock band for the first time yesterday and suprise suprise I named my character Kuro....and appppparently Kuro is not a classy word and I therefore cannot post scores on xbox live. Interesting.

Also I have lost a total of 15.5 pounds and have discovered my underwear are much too big.

And along with underwear, the girls at work tonight had a very strange discussion. I have come to realize I still blush like a school girl when anybody talks about sex. I'd like to know where I got this warped perspective that sex is bad. Pretty sure its not bad...>> well not bad for you at least. I think Im missing that important part in my brain that says ou, this should feel good. Instead I get oh god, this is so boring I could being playing video games or reading right now.

And another thing, my stupid t4 from pennington's hasn't come in...OH! and my Princess Tutu DVD's still haven't been shipped. I WANT MY MOVIES! Also I have to have a sleep over and watch all of indiana jones with a friend. She has NEVER seen any of them.

Okay I should stop typing before I begin to admit my darkest secrets. Good Night to anyone that cares to read through this random post of my life.

I have decided to start working on a new story. I have yet to come up with a title for it but its going to be an alternate universe pirate story. The world itself will be the same, like countries will mostly retain the same names, cities will probably have different names though. In this world magic sort of exsists...at least its believed in, though only one of my characters actually experiences anything of the sort and that is a curse.

So far my characters are, Timolan (main character and first mate), Zephyer (one a set of twins and Gunner), Xander (the other twin and Cook), Drake (stow away and generally everyones b-tch)and Nashira (the intimadating female captain of the ship) Also there will be Antares a slave owner and highly respected business man, though hated by most pirates and his amusement Alya (a curse girl he found in Brazil and bought from her village, she of course ends up drawing the attentions of Timolan.)

So far I haven't written anything but I have my characters all planned out in my head and I think Im going to make it like journal from several different points of view. Nashira is a firm believer in writing your thoughts down daily, keeps the memory fresh and she does not like having simpletons on her ship. Most of it will be from Timolan's journal but there will be excerts from Nashira's and some of the other crew. I might possibly work Antares in there but I don't think so.

Also on a completely different note, I have now lost 14.1 pounds and 20.75 inches. Though Im fairly certain I will have a large jump up as I finally cracked last night and ate a little bag of chocolates. T_T I feel dirty now. I went to a movie (the spiderwick chronicles-which was actually very good) and my resolved failed. It doesn't help that in three days I think I have slept less then ten hours. Im very tired and my brain function is not so good.

1) Pick 15 of your favourite movies.
2) Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3) Post them here for everyone to guess.
4) Fill in the film title once it's guessed.
5) NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions to answer!

1. What? 'Moo'? So now you're saying I'm a fat cow?

2. Just because you've got the emotional range of a teaspoon

3. And what's this thing coming toward me very fast? So big and flat and round, it needs a big wide sounding name like 'Ow', 'Ownge', 'Round', 'Ground'! That's it! Ground! Ha! I wonder if it'll be friends with me? Hello Ground! rostand

4. Oh yes, the past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it, or... learn from it.

5. I require the solace of the shadows and the dark of the night. Sunshine is my destroyer.

6. They say Japan was made by a sword. They say the old gods dipped a coral blade into the ocean, and when they pulled it out four perfect drops fell back into the sea, and those drops became the islands of Japan. I say, Japan was made by a handful of brave men. Warriors, willing to give their lives for what seems to have become a forgotten word: honor

7. That curse will spread throughout your whole body, bone and flesh alike and finally kill you. Now leave this place at sunrise. Return and *I* shall kill you. rostand

8. Can't you see? Every step I have taken, since I was that child on the bridge, has been to bring myself closer to you.

9. Relevant to said mission is the following query I now put forth to you. Said query concerning matters strictly spatial in nature... Wherein this most streamlined and trunkless of transports, boner-inspiring though it may be, wherein are we to reposit our recently deceased cargo?

10. Of course you can. I'm not quAttacked by Christmas toys? That's strange, that's the second toy complaint we've hadestioning your powers of observation I'm merely remarking upon the paradox of asking a masked man who he is. rostand

11. You're not seriously gonna believe this man, are you? Are you? HE ISN'T EVEN FROM 'ROUND HERE!

12. If you were waiting for the opportune moment, that was it.

13. I will make this easier to remember: keep you station clean... or I WILL KILL YOU!

14. You're getting older, and you'll see that life isn't like your fairy tales. The world is a cruel place. And you'll learn that, even if it hurts

15. Attacked by Christmas toys? That's strange, that's the second toy complaint we've had.

Okay there they are! WOO!

Just a quick post before I go back to work, I had my visit to the center the other day and I am now down 13.1 pounds. Hopefully by monday I will be down a full 15 pounds. This is so exciting for me! I am down one size already. Its hard to believe I've been doing this for over a month now, and I've hardly cheated...considering what I could eat and what I did eat when I actually did cheat.

Well I gotta head to work because I need to make money cause Im super broke (at the moment I honestly think I could make more money in Nova Scotia and thats scary). Wish me luck!

I finally paid of a good chunk of my credit card because I need to buy a plane ticket home for may...which reminds I had to change the dates again, now I won't be flying in until after the 27th...stupid sales.

Anyways, I was searching around on the internet for prices on a certain anime boxset. I have been looking for princess tutu and the other night I found it for 25 dollars. BOTH SEASONS!!! So I of course had to buy it. Altogether with shipping it cost me 37 dollars and some change. I thought it was a great deals but I feel bad for spending the money XD bad me. OH WELL! I have a new anime *does a dance*

Okay so I don't feel that bad...I don't really feel bad at all. I can't wait for that to get here so I can watch it on my tv. YAY!

PS: Went to a sleepover last night and it was awesome, and also I am done a total of 12.3 pounds (but i sorta cheated at the sleepover a little bit last night.)

So lots has happened since I last posted. The most exciting thing first. Im four weeks into my herbal magic program and I have lost 10.5 pounds! Now that I see that its working im even more excited.

My next exciting bit was that I went to a Thrice concert and it was AMAZING!!!! I had a great time aside from a bunch idoits that decided to mosh near the front of the stage. I was just trying to watch the band and once they started getting wild I got elbowed in the face and knocked on my ass. I guess others realized I am an inexperienced concert goer because before I even hit the ground I was grabbed by the arms and hauled to me feet, to whoever helped me up I greatly appreciate your help. To the idoits that apparently need to shove each other around for amusement, GO GET A JOB!!!

Alrighty next on my agenda, I have two new animes that I have fallen in love with. D Gray-man (my favourite character so far is Krory the not actually a vampire, vampire.) The other is Gundam 00 and just like I fell in love with Duo from Gundam Wing I have fallen in love with Lockon Stratos.

Anyways Im trying to watch a movie so I will go for now.

I had my usual visit to the centre today (by centre Im referring to the herbal magic office) and was pleasantly surprised to find I'd gone down a full two pounds since friday, which makes it a total of 8.7 pounds and a total of 14.75 inches! HURRAH IM GETTING SMALLER!!!

Also I was wondering if there is such a thing as a phobia of gas stations I realized today that I haaate getting gas and will go out of my way to avoid it. I begged someone at work to go get gas for me...I am a weirdo.

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So as the title of this points out is F'ING cold here right now. The last few days its been minus 44 with the windchill!!! WTF!!! And in alberta it needs to be -45 for things to 'supposedly' shut down. Except nothing ever does. So we all still need to leave our warm homes and wander into the freezing cold to make money.....T_T

Aside from that the weight loss is going fantabulous (i like to make words up sometimes) Im down six pounds and seven inches in two weeks. Going onto week three I feel better than I have in years. I honestly can't wait to go home and show myself off, even if thats rather conceited of me. XD

Im super proud of myself right now for getting bills paid of as well and one more bit of good news is that I might get a promotion at work. My manager wants to train me as the new sales manager. Thats scary but exciting at the same time!

So things are going wonderful here. PS I CAN'T WAIT TO COME HOME!!!!!!